Giving up

You have no reason to be mad at me.  You’re the one who talks to other girls and wants to fuck other girls.  You call me babe and say you want me to tuck you in and still act like we are together.  I honestly don’t know what you want from me anymore.  One day I hope you look back and realize how you messed up.  I am hurt and broken and you feel nothing.  I feel as you don’t care.  You say you’re hurting but it’s hard to see that. Why can’t you just be mine and love me back? What is wrong with me? Am i not pretty or hot enough? I don’t understand. My life is a fucking joke.  It literally is.  I can’t do anything but laugh.